As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
For those who don’t know, I work two jobs, my Monday to Friday day job that is my career path. Then, a couple nights a week I manage and bartend at a local family sports restaurant; yes an alcoholic bartender, what a concept. Well, this is where a special saying comes in to play, after … Continue reading Bicentennial
The definition of sobriety is fixed for those who cannot control or have a healthy relationship with alcohol. Staying sober is more than just not using a substance. It involves living a healthy and productive life. It’s not about just dropping the bottle, it’s picking up those pieces and putting yourself and your life back … Continue reading 6 Months
Growth is actually contagious, so if you want to reach your goals, you’ve got to get around people who are going in the same direction you want to be going, and you will catch the success.” —Dr. Henry Cloud Someone in my meetings had said "by getting sober WE changed the rules". I have … Continue reading Surround yourself with people who get it.
This weekend has taught me one thing, I’m no longer the life of the party but that’s okay with me. I am going to own this “new life” of mine. My life has gotten quiet, it’s the Holiday season and I had not one but two holiday parties to attend. The first party, a woman … Continue reading ‘Tis the Season
At 29 years old, I have personally asked myself the million-dollar question a handful of times "do I have a drinking problem?" I look inside myself, I am my toughest critic and I used to ask this question all of the time. I wondered if alcohol was holding me back, I couldn't figure out … Continue reading Alcohol is S#*T
Dear Cayla, If you’re reading this, it’s safe to say you (we) are having a hard time silencing the voice in your head that is saying you can drink. The voice is telling you that you’re not really an alcoholic, if you are – just have a few to calm this feeling. It’s telling you … Continue reading A letter to myself
Day 21 of being sober - they say it takes 21 days to build a habit. While getting sober, I've tried building habits but it's hard when the obsession is still stronger than ever. I am growing and evolving but I'm realizing that I haven't let completely go of who I was when I was … Continue reading Life on Life’s Terms
Last night I went to my first watch party while being sober. I was with people I trust and love, at first it was fine; I brought my own jug of sweet tea and my own cup. I noticed I was drinking my sweet tea like my life depended on it... The game started and … Continue reading Sober Football Game..
Sobriety is kind of like the fast-pass line at Disney World, except the ride is simply growing up. Your friends may not be rocked by the not drinking thing, it’s possible that if they aren’t engaging in their own path of self-discovery, there may be tension at some point while you figure yourself out, grow … Continue reading Evolving
My feelings seem to be all over the place - One minute I am on top of the world, unbeatable and invincible. The next minute, I am struggling, psychically drained and questioning if a sober life is worth this pain and chaos. If I ever had a long day at work or felt as if … Continue reading Emotional Rollercoaster
Two weeks sober and I had someone tell me I looked healthier and happier, while yes I was still having internal war-fare in my own mind; truth was I was in fact happier. I did in fact feel good too. Things I couldn't get the hang of in my new role (promotion) at work, I … Continue reading “You look healthier”
- I turned 29 this past July, my birthday party was a huge success - My best friend threw a huge surprise party with a giant water slide bounce house (yes, I had a giant bounce house at my 29th birthday; don't judge.) It was one of the few things that suited me, … Continue reading Outgrowing my own B.S.