At 29 years old, I have personally asked myself the million-dollar question a handful of times "do I have a drinking problem?" I look inside myself, I am my toughest critic and I used to ask this question all of the time. I wondered if alcohol was holding me back, I couldn't figure out … Continue reading Alcohol is S#*T
Dear Cayla, If you’re reading this, it’s safe to say you (we) are having a hard time silencing the voice in your head that is saying you can drink. The voice is telling you that you’re not really an alcoholic, if you are – just have a few to calm this feeling. It’s telling you … Continue reading A letter to myself
Day 21 of being sober - they say it takes 21 days to build a habit. While getting sober, I've tried building habits but it's hard when the obsession is still stronger than ever. I am growing and evolving but I'm realizing that I haven't let completely go of who I was when I was … Continue reading Life on Life’s Terms
Last night I went to my first watch party while being sober. I was with people I trust and love, at first it was fine; I brought my own jug of sweet tea and my own cup. I noticed I was drinking my sweet tea like my life depended on it... The game started and … Continue reading Sober Football Game..
Sobriety is kind of like the fast-pass line at Disney World, except the ride is simply growing up. Your friends may not be rocked by the not drinking thing, it’s possible that if they aren’t engaging in their own path of self-discovery, there may be tension at some point while you figure yourself out, grow … Continue reading Evolving
My feelings seem to be all over the place - One minute I am on top of the world, unbeatable and invincible. The next minute, I am struggling, psychically drained and questioning if a sober life is worth this pain and chaos. If I ever had a long day at work or felt as if … Continue reading Emotional Rollercoaster
Two weeks sober and I had someone tell me I looked healthier and happier, while yes I was still having internal war-fare in my own mind; truth was I was in fact happier. I did in fact feel good too. Things I couldn't get the hang of in my new role (promotion) at work, I … Continue reading “You look healthier”