Today, I have been completely sober for 365 days. IN A ROW. Which is a miracle in and of itself. One of the most valuable lessons I’ve learned in these past 365 days is if you want to die? Throw yourself into the sea and you’ll find yourself fighting to survive. You don’t want to … Continue reading 365
As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
For those who don’t know, I work two jobs, my Monday to Friday day job that is my career path. Then, a couple nights a week I manage and bartend at a local family sports restaurant; yes an alcoholic bartender, what a concept. Well, this is where a special saying comes in to play, after … Continue reading Bicentennial
Growth is actually contagious, so if you want to reach your goals, you’ve got to get around people who are going in the same direction you want to be going, and you will catch the success.” —Dr. Henry Cloud Someone in my meetings had said "by getting sober WE changed the rules". I have … Continue reading Surround yourself with people who get it.
This weekend has taught me one thing, I’m no longer the life of the party but that’s okay with me. I am going to own this “new life” of mine. My life has gotten quiet, it’s the Holiday season and I had not one but two holiday parties to attend. The first party, a woman … Continue reading ‘Tis the Season
4 months ago today I took my life back. By now most everyone knows that I am sober and for the most part it’s past the point of people congratulating me, trying to tell me “oh you didn’t have a problem” or privately asking me “don’t you miss drinking?” It almost seems like the buzz of … Continue reading 4 Months…
I wanted to make a post about some of the things I’ve noticed and learned in the past 100 days. I don’t need to be drunk to misplace things or be forgetful. I always summed it up to my drinking but surprisingly it turns out that side of my personality is just that, … Continue reading 100 Days
At 29 years old, I have personally asked myself the million-dollar question a handful of times "do I have a drinking problem?" I look inside myself, I am my toughest critic and I used to ask this question all of the time. I wondered if alcohol was holding me back, I couldn't figure out … Continue reading Alcohol is S#*T
We are more likely to meet people who share our values and goals when we maintain a positive and outgoing attitude in the presence of individuals we do not yet know. As someone who is "starting over" per say; it's vital that I surround myself with people who want to make themselves better, people who … Continue reading You can’t do EPIC shit with BASIC people.
I most definitely think you have a choice when it comes to how you may view not just stopping drinking but becoming sober and actively recovering. You can view it as something you HAVE to do or you can view it as a positivist, curiosity and as a good thing. You can view your … Continue reading 30 Days
Dear Cayla, If you’re reading this, it’s safe to say you (we) are having a hard time silencing the voice in your head that is saying you can drink. The voice is telling you that you’re not really an alcoholic, if you are – just have a few to calm this feeling. It’s telling you … Continue reading A letter to myself
Day 21 of being sober - they say it takes 21 days to build a habit. While getting sober, I've tried building habits but it's hard when the obsession is still stronger than ever. I am growing and evolving but I'm realizing that I haven't let completely go of who I was when I was … Continue reading Life on Life’s Terms
I can’t forget whenever I stop drinking, it won’t solve all of my problems but I will be able to know now my real problems and not just the ones I’ve been creating for myself. I will have to face the ones I had been numbing and drowning away. Sobriety doesn’t mean my problems went … Continue reading No more numbness
Last night I went to my first watch party while being sober. I was with people I trust and love, at first it was fine; I brought my own jug of sweet tea and my own cup. I noticed I was drinking my sweet tea like my life depended on it... The game started and … Continue reading Sober Football Game..
Sobriety is kind of like the fast-pass line at Disney World, except the ride is simply growing up. Your friends may not be rocked by the not drinking thing, it’s possible that if they aren’t engaging in their own path of self-discovery, there may be tension at some point while you figure yourself out, grow … Continue reading Evolving
**UPDATE: 8/20/2019** This blog site is under construction just like my life. I have been clean from drugs since June 2011, just like it says in How It Works - I was one of those who thought I could control my drinking.. I know now that I am not. 7 years later and I am … Continue reading Cayla’s Not-So-Secret Diary