There’s a question I have been pondering recently. What happens when we own everything we are? By ‘owning’, I mean speaking up about the pieces of ourselves that make us unique. It does no harm when speaking about the pieces of ourselves that we are proud of but by doing so only inflates our own … Continue reading The lost side of my story
As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
I had met Eli at a neighborhood lesbian bar, where I had been going on occasion for a couple years. The first night I laid eyes on her was out on the dance floor, this short beautiful brunette caught my eye and I couldn’t turn my gaze away. The music was loud, lights were flashing … Continue reading Eli
This one here, it is a bitter sweet memory for me. I had a crush on Demi growing up through most of high school, our families were close and we were often at each others family get together's. Anyways, I never told her I liked her or anything growing up and college obviously led us … Continue reading Demi
Growth is actually contagious, so if you want to reach your goals, you’ve got to get around people who are going in the same direction you want to be going, and you will catch the success.” —Dr. Henry Cloud Someone in my meetings had said "by getting sober WE changed the rules". I have … Continue reading Surround yourself with people who get it.
I realized I hadn't done a well enough job at this transition between the old blog and the new one. So I figured no better time than now to give you all some background and explain why I started blogging just over a year ago and why it's changed recently. First and foremost, I do … Continue reading 50 Shades of Please Be Gay
Every year the University Suns high school had a winter basketball tournament and it had become a tradition that my teammate Ally and I had a sleepover that same weekend, we had never talked about me sleeping with girls or even kissing girls. She never seemed to show any curiosity but I of course had … Continue reading Ally
They always say fall in love with your best friend - but what if you fall truly in love though? I am guilty of this a handful of times, I have done it as long as I can remember; it also hurts a lot differently as a lesbian or gay man - you ultimately … Continue reading Always wanting what we can’t have
One of the first girls to catch my attention in High school definitely made me realize my feelings started blossoming. I was beginning to realize I was attracted to several girls and this whole new world, if you will.. Opened up my mind and my life. I had my first girl kiss the summer going … Continue reading Mary
While it is painful to forget someone, it is also painful to wait for someone but the truest pain, the toughest pain is trying to decide if you should wait or forget. Pain will always come and go. It is just one major component to the grand scheme of life and love. It is … Continue reading Pain
I am an advocate for a company called Only Human, we are a group of people that is growing - we believe that no one is on a "list." Whether you are Gay, Straight, Black, White or anything - that's not what you are, you are simply HUMAN. Many women and Men in that group … Continue reading Little Humans
This isn't a fun post for me to write, it's actually one that scares me to write. Very few know this story but I had a nightmare last night and felt now was the time to post it. I never pressed charges because I don't remember saying No. I never pressed charges because even though … Continue reading I didn’t say Yes..
The practice of yoga is one I am most unquestionably a beginner at and I am proud of being a beginner, I have amazing instructors and friends at the studio I go to. During the course of a class there is a sequencing of Asanas, there's holding of poses.. scattered with slight … Continue reading Don’t mind me while I sob during Savasana
I think it’s time I let you go. It feels impossible to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the day dreaming, the running in place, replaying my memories... it’s not healthy. I’ve been holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that … Continue reading It’s time
Whenever I am going through a difficult time, I may hesitate to call even my best friends because I don't want to burden them with my troubles. This is especially true when I've been going through several challenges, even repeat challenges and I start to feel like I sound like a broken record. It is … Continue reading Call on me
I'm not the best runner but I continue to run. Running is the alone time that allows my brain to untangle the webs that have built up in my mind over the past day or two. Despite the pain, because it heals my emotional pain. Despite the self-doubt, because when I'm done - I've conquered … Continue reading Running is my therapy
The goal--a world free of MS. I've signed up for my second Bike MS--a fundraising ride that is changing the lives of people affected by MS and helping fuel progress toward a world free of MS. I'd love your support as I prepare for this incredible experience. Last year I was taken back and humbled … Continue reading Bike MS: Breakaway to Key Largo