Before getting into this story - you need to understand how toxic this person is to my life, how toxic a relationship and engagement it was. Long story short... We were together for years, we used to live together, We were supposed to get married... three months before we would've been saying "I do" I … Continue reading J IIII
They always say fall in love with your best friend - but what if you fall truly in love though? I am guilty of this a handful of times, I have done it as long as I can remember; it also hurts a lot differently as a lesbian or gay man - you ultimately … Continue reading Always wanting what we can’t have
I'm practicing non-attachment. Accepting what comes and allowing it to leave when it's time. What's for me will be for me effortlessly. Non-attachment is also known as detachment, which is when someone can overcome a desire for people, places, things and concepts of life. Through non-attachment someone will experience a perspective to life that is … Continue reading Non-Attachment
Nothing I ever do seems good enough for anyone, maybe that's why I am so hard on myself and why I am constantly angry with myself. How could I expect myself to have confidence and an ounce of self worth and pride when I don't get it from anyone else in my life. I'm not … Continue reading It is what it is
I think it’s time I let you go. It feels impossible to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the day dreaming, the running in place, replaying my memories... it’s not healthy. I’ve been holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that … Continue reading It’s time
I made everything about you for so long, that is changing now. You were a mystery to everyone but me, I knew all of your secrets, every curve on your body and I loved that I knew it all while everyone else wondered. Now I sit here, wishing I could forget everything about you, I’m … Continue reading So this is what healing feels like..
I just want to go into a bit more detail about this blog and why I started it NOW. A couple friends and I used to joke that I'd write a book one day about all the girl's I've been with because none of them were actually into girls. I wrote about 3 chapters in … Continue reading Fear of Failure..