My feelings seem to be all over the place - One minute I am on top of the world, unbeatable and invincible. The next minute, I am struggling, psychically drained and questioning if a sober life is worth this pain and chaos. If I ever had a long day at work or felt as if … Continue reading Emotional Rollercoaster
Two weeks sober and I had someone tell me I looked healthier and happier, while yes I was still having internal war-fare in my own mind; truth was I was in fact happier. I did in fact feel good too. Things I couldn't get the hang of in my new role (promotion) at work, I … Continue reading “You look healthier”
- I turned 29 this past July, my birthday party was a huge success - My best friend threw a huge surprise party with a giant water slide bounce house (yes, I had a giant bounce house at my 29th birthday; don't judge.) It was one of the few things that suited me, … Continue reading Outgrowing my own B.S.
I wrote your post a week ago and you've been stuck on my mind since. The memories that the drugs had erased are crashing back into me relentlessly. I've been remembering vividly the way your hands fit into mine, the way you'd pull my arm into you while we were cuddling. It's crazy how my … Continue reading Layla Layla Layla..
Layla was a cheerleader at our high school, she was a year older than me so we weren’t really close in high school. When I came home from college in West Virginia, my ex and I had recently split.. it was a very rough time in my life between drinking, drugs and putting myself … Continue reading Layla
I am an advocate for a company called Only Human. There was a post they put up today on Facebook that has changed a few thoughts/self awareness in me. "Pro tip: think about the things you say online and to humans who you may think aren’t listening. Turn on more lights than you turn off. … Continue reading Be a Good Human.
While it is painful to forget someone, it is also painful to wait for someone but the truest pain, the toughest pain is trying to decide if you should wait or forget. Pain will always come and go. It is just one major component to the grand scheme of life and love. It is … Continue reading Pain