There’s a question I have been pondering recently. What happens when we own everything we are? By ‘owning’, I mean speaking up about the pieces of ourselves that make us unique. It does no harm when speaking about the pieces of ourselves that we are proud of but by doing so only inflates our own … Continue reading The lost side of my story
As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
Every year the University Suns high school had a winter basketball tournament and it had become a tradition that my teammate Ally and I had a sleepover that same weekend, we had never talked about me sleeping with girls or even kissing girls. She never seemed to show any curiosity but I of course had … Continue reading Ally
They always say fall in love with your best friend - but what if you fall truly in love though? I am guilty of this a handful of times, I have done it as long as I can remember; it also hurts a lot differently as a lesbian or gay man - you ultimately … Continue reading Always wanting what we can’t have
One of the first girls to catch my attention in High school definitely made me realize my feelings started blossoming. I was beginning to realize I was attracted to several girls and this whole new world, if you will.. Opened up my mind and my life. I had my first girl kiss the summer going … Continue reading Mary
"Happily ever after" Finding your forever, building a family, making life long memories; that's the dream isn't it? I've been watching friend after friend get married, start a family and live all of the moments I've been dreaming of. Measuring my life up against anybody else is a waste of time because I will never … Continue reading One Day
I am not one who usually looks too deep into dreams or anything like that, so this will sound crazy This one dream has been haunting me, I had a crazy dream about three years ago... I was vacationing with a girl I was clearly with. I could see everything so vividly, her long wavy … Continue reading #FindingElizabeth
Sobriety is kind of like the fast-pass line at Disney World, except the ride is simply growing up. Your friends may not be rocked by the not drinking thing, it’s possible that if they aren’t engaging in their own path of self-discovery, there may be tension at some point while you figure yourself out, grow … Continue reading Evolving
Nothing I ever do seems good enough for anyone, maybe that's why I am so hard on myself and why I am constantly angry with myself. How could I expect myself to have confidence and an ounce of self worth and pride when I don't get it from anyone else in my life. I'm not … Continue reading It is what it is
I think it’s time I let you go. It feels impossible to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the day dreaming, the running in place, replaying my memories... it’s not healthy. I’ve been holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that … Continue reading It’s time
When I think about "Happy Me" my mind races back to you. It races back to our time together.. Our disagreements and all of our memories. "Happy Me" is playing in snow, laughing out loud. My mind floods with pictures I have cherished since the beginning, I remember your kisses and your laugh. My mind … Continue reading Happy Me
I don’t care what anybody says. Its not hard to be loyal. Its not hard to be faithful. Its not hard to treat someone right. Its not hard to give someone reassurance. Its not hard to stick to one person. Its not hard to acknowledge someone’s worth. Its not hard to NOT break someone’s heart. … Continue reading Love is easy
The world needs more GOOD HUMANS
I made everything about you for so long, that is changing now. You were a mystery to everyone but me, I knew all of your secrets, every curve on your body and I loved that I knew it all while everyone else wondered. Now I sit here, wishing I could forget everything about you, I’m … Continue reading So this is what healing feels like..
Lying to save your own face may make you temporarily pretty, you can paint this picture of yourself as a victim and innocent but the secrets that have been hiding in the dark will come to light. Time has a way of showing true colors, so don't be offended by the truth when it comes … Continue reading I owe you nothing
This post is for two people that have inspired me to follow my dreams and stay true to myself - they don't know I'm posting this yet. Hell, come to think of it, they probably don't even realize the impact they've had and continue to have on my life. First and foremost is Dar. (IG: lularoe.darnellbrunt) … Continue reading Live your story
I just want to go into a bit more detail about this blog and why I started it NOW. A couple friends and I used to joke that I'd write a book one day about all the girl's I've been with because none of them were actually into girls. I wrote about 3 chapters in … Continue reading Fear of Failure..
I thought I knew what heart break was, what infatuation was, what lust was, most importantly I thought I knew what love was. Little did I know you would change all of that, you would change my beliefs, you would change my life. When someone attractive enters into your sight your pupils dilate 20%. When … Continue reading The one that got away
I never really thought I would be a poetry fan until a book my friend suggested I read was brought into my life. A book by Rupi Kaur called The sun and her flowers. This book brought meaning to "moving on" and getting past relationships and heart breaks I never thought I'd move on from. This … Continue reading The sun and her flowers