As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
The bitterness of forbidden fruit is irresistible
I realized I hadn't done a well enough job at this transition between the old blog and the new one. So I figured no better time than now to give you all some background and explain why I started blogging just over a year ago and why it's changed recently. First and foremost, I do … Continue reading 50 Shades of Please Be Gay
I think it’s time I let you go. It feels impossible to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the day dreaming, the running in place, replaying my memories... it’s not healthy. I’ve been holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that … Continue reading It’s time
We all start as strangers, there is no doubt about that. The choices that we make in terms of love are usually ones that seem to be inevitable anyway. We will find people irrationally compelling. We will find souls made of the same stuff ours are. We will find classmates and partners and neighbors and … Continue reading Strangers
I'm not the best runner but I continue to run. Running is the alone time that allows my brain to untangle the webs that have built up in my mind over the past day or two. Despite the pain, because it heals my emotional pain. Despite the self-doubt, because when I'm done - I've conquered … Continue reading Running is my therapy
So, they say you can have three types of friends - A friend for a reason, a season and a lifetime. There are individual reasoning's behind each one but it never states if they can cross over or change; I've had friends that should've been lifetime friends become friends for a season and then friends … Continue reading Friendship
Single is NOT a status. Single is a word that describes someone that is strong enough to live and enjoy their lives without depending on others. I am someone that LOVES, LOVE. Yet I've never given myself the true chance to LOVE MYSELF. I want to be my own rock, my own anchor, my own soul … Continue reading Being Single
I made everything about you for so long, that is changing now. You were a mystery to everyone but me, I knew all of your secrets, every curve on your body and I loved that I knew it all while everyone else wondered. Now I sit here, wishing I could forget everything about you, I’m … Continue reading So this is what healing feels like..
I thought I knew what heart break was, what infatuation was, what lust was, most importantly I thought I knew what love was. Little did I know you would change all of that, you would change my beliefs, you would change my life. When someone attractive enters into your sight your pupils dilate 20%. When … Continue reading The one that got away
I never really thought I would be a poetry fan until a book my friend suggested I read was brought into my life. A book by Rupi Kaur called The sun and her flowers. This book brought meaning to "moving on" and getting past relationships and heart breaks I never thought I'd move on from. This … Continue reading The sun and her flowers