When we are carrying the burden of our unprocessed pain, sooner or later it will inconvenience us. Many of us are going through our lives aware that there is a pool of pain underlying our daily emotions that we've felt for so long we honestly aren't even sure where it comes from. It almost … Continue reading
...The core of who we are remains the same. All my life I kind of just went with the flow of life, somewhere along the line though I started fighting the changes and ups and downs of my life. I thought I could change outcomes and somehow change whatever anyone saw when they saw me. … Continue reading We all change throughout life…
This is NOT my writing, I am sharing it simply because with everything going on, it hit my heart in a way that I can't explain. Click Here for the original blogger. Yes there is fear. Yes there is isolation. Yes there is panic buying. Yes there is sickness. Yes there is even death. But, They … Continue reading Lockdown
As if getting sober isn’t hard enough, I pretty much have to re-learn how to do anything and everything. While using alcohol, drugs or other destructive behaviors I had been numbing my emotions for years. I don’t know about anyone else but when I was drinking, relationships were most definitely not my strong suit; in … Continue reading Learning to love me
What happens when you let the person in the mirror down..
I had met Eli at a neighborhood lesbian bar, where I had been going on occasion for a couple years. The first night I laid eyes on her was out on the dance floor, this short beautiful brunette caught my eye and I couldn’t turn my gaze away. The music was loud, lights were flashing … Continue reading Eli
I realized I hadn't done a well enough job at this transition between the old blog and the new one. So I figured no better time than now to give you all some background and explain why I started blogging just over a year ago and why it's changed recently. First and foremost, I do … Continue reading 50 Shades of Please Be Gay
They always say fall in love with your best friend - but what if you fall truly in love though? I am guilty of this a handful of times, I have done it as long as I can remember; it also hurts a lot differently as a lesbian or gay man - you ultimately … Continue reading Always wanting what we can’t have
I am not one who usually looks too deep into dreams or anything like that, so this will sound crazy This one dream has been haunting me, I had a crazy dream about three years ago... I was vacationing with a girl I was clearly with. I could see everything so vividly, her long wavy … Continue reading #FindingElizabeth
I think it’s time I let you go. It feels impossible to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life. But the day dreaming, the running in place, replaying my memories... it’s not healthy. I’ve been holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that … Continue reading It’s time
When I think about "Happy Me" my mind races back to you. It races back to our time together.. Our disagreements and all of our memories. "Happy Me" is playing in snow, laughing out loud. My mind floods with pictures I have cherished since the beginning, I remember your kisses and your laugh. My mind … Continue reading Happy Me
I don’t care what anybody says. Its not hard to be loyal. Its not hard to be faithful. Its not hard to treat someone right. Its not hard to give someone reassurance. Its not hard to stick to one person. Its not hard to acknowledge someone’s worth. Its not hard to NOT break someone’s heart. … Continue reading Love is easy
We all start as strangers, there is no doubt about that. The choices that we make in terms of love are usually ones that seem to be inevitable anyway. We will find people irrationally compelling. We will find souls made of the same stuff ours are. We will find classmates and partners and neighbors and … Continue reading Strangers
I'm not the best runner but I continue to run. Running is the alone time that allows my brain to untangle the webs that have built up in my mind over the past day or two. Despite the pain, because it heals my emotional pain. Despite the self-doubt, because when I'm done - I've conquered … Continue reading Running is my therapy
So, they say you can have three types of friends - A friend for a reason, a season and a lifetime. There are individual reasoning's behind each one but it never states if they can cross over or change; I've had friends that should've been lifetime friends become friends for a season and then friends … Continue reading Friendship
Single is NOT a status. Single is a word that describes someone that is strong enough to live and enjoy their lives without depending on others. I am someone that LOVES, LOVE. Yet I've never given myself the true chance to LOVE MYSELF. I want to be my own rock, my own anchor, my own soul … Continue reading Being Single
I made everything about you for so long, that is changing now. You were a mystery to everyone but me, I knew all of your secrets, every curve on your body and I loved that I knew it all while everyone else wondered. Now I sit here, wishing I could forget everything about you, I’m … Continue reading So this is what healing feels like..
How am I supposed to un-love the person that I can’t let go of?
Lying to save your own face may make you temporarily pretty, you can paint this picture of yourself as a victim and innocent but the secrets that have been hiding in the dark will come to light. Time has a way of showing true colors, so don't be offended by the truth when it comes … Continue reading I owe you nothing
I thought I knew what heart break was, what infatuation was, what lust was, most importantly I thought I knew what love was. Little did I know you would change all of that, you would change my beliefs, you would change my life. When someone attractive enters into your sight your pupils dilate 20%. When … Continue reading The one that got away
*One Of My Friends* That one little hashtag is filled with funny, loving and heartbreaking posts. If you’ve ever fallen for one of your friends, you know what I’m talking about when I say heartbreaking posts. To fall for or even have a crush on someone so close to your heart, someone that is a … Continue reading #OOMF
I never really thought I would be a poetry fan until a book my friend suggested I read was brought into my life. A book by Rupi Kaur called The sun and her flowers. This book brought meaning to "moving on" and getting past relationships and heart breaks I never thought I'd move on from. This … Continue reading The sun and her flowers